Yes, he had right

Dear people in the city of god! Don't you think that you are thinking too much about your faith. Shouldn't it be better if you just try to live and enjoy that life what was given to you. Enjoy, but obviously suffer for something better, something more enjoyable. Isn't it simple. This is, what you should do. But look, who speaking! Me! Me, who is the same guy like you. I'm falling into the same trap like you. I can not stop thinking about my future. I can not stop thinking about my work, my friends, my mistakes and most of all about my love. This is you, this is me. Though i know, it would be much more simple and easy if i just keep doing instead of thinking, i can't. Am I weak, or am I just human? So yes, this is the think, what is living in me nowadays. I know, the future is better, the future is bright, but I still keep up thinking. I just finished my last contract at the Carnival. Even earlyer than it supposed to be done, cause i couldn't keep up, i didn't see the meaning to stay any longer. I had to come home. And I mean: home. You know, what I'm talking about. Now i'm here. I've been home; it was wonderful, and now i'm home again. It's not. Next goal is England. The beautyful, ancient island-country up in the North. Somebody just told me, it has an awfull weather, though it's the southern side of the country. Fourtunately I'm not covered with sun-cells to gain my power from there, so i can keep up even in rain. How to say, I'm really happy cause I gonna go there to have my home there, where i can feel really cozy, cozier then enywhere before, but until then i have a few task to complete. And how i start to think in big lines, i can see the success. It's really gonna work. Just a room is needed, some food and some - maybe a bit more - searching for work. And you know, my dear reader, anything, what was hard in my life it was worth doing. The easy things was not matter too much. So i have this opportunity to make a "hard pleasure" for myself. I know, this all entry sounds like I try to fill some power and faith in myself with it, to do, what I want to do, but it's not. I knew what I gonna write before I start to write anything. How I'm doing to keep my power and faith, is the thing, what I just mentioned in the first part of this entry. You see? So maybe we really should think about the faith, maybe we aren't ment to just do our job, to pursuit our dreams without thinking about them. Yes, we made our life harder like this, but just how I said: anything, what was hard in my life, it was worth doing it... Dear people in the city of god, the lord knew how to form us to have a worth living. Let's appreciate it and go ahead for a better life.